i catch your eye and i smile, we laugh and i talk alot of rubbish... we stay in bed and make love, you drink coffee, and you refuse to make me tea...but you do boil the water... standing in the kitchen, you sneak up behind me and kiss me, and my body trembles, i turn to kiss you back and try to let you know how it feels for me... but i never know if i succeed.

everytime you look at me in that way, just for a second, i think, is this it?... and everytime, my heart misses a whole beat, for that one second, i cant remember how to talk, how to breathe, how to be... the carefully contained ball of butterflies in my stomach explodes into a fit of excitement, sending waves of nervous tingling throughout my body

but then the second passes. the butteflies retreat, i feel a slight ache within my body where the tingling was only moments ago... i catch my breath and mumble under it...

everytime, i remember to be patient, but my heart is a little weaker...