"i see the crystal raindrops fall
and the beauty of it all
when the sun comes shining through
to make those rainbows in my mind
and darling when the morning comes
and i see the morning sun
i want to be the one with you..."

-Bill Withers

i want
your hand to want so badly to be intertwined with mine it fumbles on its first attempt.

i want
your lips to want mine so badly they stop me mid conversation.

i want
you to need so urgently to touch me just to make sure im still there.

im like a fast forwad button, i always need to be there faster, just so i dont miss out. its like im scared to lose something that im not sure i have in the first place. i usually feel enormously anxious when i dont know what will happen. especially when i have an idea in my mind about the perfect outcome.

to be with you is my burning ambition. my thirst for you is unquenchable. i want you in ways i cant describe. when i see you i get butterflies and when you say my name, i cave into my emotions and i cant control myself. my heart races and my knees go weak. my breathing quickens and i lose concentration.

but im glad, these are the feelings ive always associated with being head over heels. everyday the part of me that holds onto you grows bigger and more powerful. youre taking over my heart and my mind and i really dont care.

i want to be your special girl, i want you to be proud to be with me. i want to be a little bit scared about the power you have over me. i want to learn from you, and teach you things. i want to just know what youre thinking, like you said i eventually would. i want you to know the way you make me feel, indisputably... and i want you to feel it everytime i touch you.

i never thought i would be able to wait. i never thought i would meet someone who would make me want to be patient, make me want to understand, instead of being forced into it by the existing circumstance. i never imagined id find the inspiration to just go with it, take it slow, just so there was no chance things could be ruined. i never dreamed someone would have power over me, with only his words, to calm me down and ease my troubled mind when i get anxious again. especially not the way you do.

my feelings for you are irrevoacbly uncompromising, and theyre not going anywhere.

this time im being patient.
for you.

♥