i want you to want it
so badly
its all too much to take
i want you not
to care
what could be at stake
i want you to think of it
dream of it
not be able to get it out of your head
i want you to momentarily think that,
without it
youre possibly better off dead
i want you to feel it and need it
stop yourself,
and then
i want you to take it
and till the next time,
feel the same way all over again...

i cry and you close your eyes
wishing it was earlier times
it was so much easier
friends is a complex term
and causes problems so much worse
if you break the rules
and im in a weird place
nothing to fill this empty space
but memories
but i think we both know
if theres anywhere im going to go
its nowhere
i was a little bit lost but you
found me, pulled me through
even if i never said it
ill stay if you ask
or if you give me a free pass
ill take it
i guess what i mean to say
is baby im not going away
ill wait for you.

its hard when things dont work out
the way you hoped they would
its like your suddenly lost
its like you never really understood
i dont want to say youre a fraud
or that u were a dickhead to me
but baby you were - just a little bit
and now you might have lost me.
and all those things you said
in every message and every call?
i still cant decide what they meant
or if they were even true at all.
i wont pass you off as naive
too young to understand,
because i know you know you had me
right in the palm of your hand.
you easily broke your promise
and its worse because you knew
what he had done hurt me so bad
i had so much trust in you

i guess i can be selfish and hope
that things dont work out with her
but that would make me kind of like you
so ill leave you just as you were...

im missing you, can you find me?
youre the ghost from my past
its been so long since you left
so many years weve been apart
i want to see your smile
light up the room the way it used to
i want you to remember me
the way i remember you.

ive given to the fullest
ive burst at the seams
ive greived for lost friendships
ive known its more than it seems

ive felt hopeless and broken
cried from laughter and fear
ive learnt that some problems
just dont disappear

ive wanted and needed
ive fought untill i fell
ive given up on hope
ive kept quiet when i should tell

ive argued when ive known im wrong
given in when im right
fallen into the darkness
and lived to see out the night

ive been so impatient
ive needed so bad
ive had what i wanted
and ive wanted what i cant have

ive loved alot of people
and let a few go free
but im only starting to realise
what its like to feel like me

you are all that is right
you are all that is wrong
you are the beat of my heart
you are the tune in my song
you are the shiver that runs down my back when im cold
you are the one i see myself with as i grow old
you are the best friend who's always on my side
you are the one in whom i can confide
you are the one i turn to when i want to cry
you are the one i want to fall asleep next to everynight
you are the one who puts a smile on my face
you are the one slowly becoming my saving grace
you are the one that i see when i look up at the stars
you are the one who makes it all worth it when i look into my past
you are the blue from the sky
you are the light from the sun
you are, to put it simply, the only one.

why do i miss you?
you caused me so much pain
why cant i find the sunshine
even after all this rain

how can you deny your feelings
one by one, pick them apart
throw them back into my face
i put them in your heart!

how can you say to me
youll have my children, be my wife
then pretend i never existed,
erase me from your life...

when all else failed to heal me
when it was all too much to take
i want you to know you saved me
from making a terrible mistake

i know sometimes im difficult
and i always fight for what i think is true
but everytime i fall down, youre there
and im so thankful for you